What Kind of Story Am I?

What Kind of Story Am I?
May 28, 2014

It is interesting to me how songs can evolve over time. Not just as I am writing them, but even years after writing, recording, and releasing them. They seem to take on new layers of meaning for me as time goes by. There are a few songs of mine that have taken on different meanings over the years. Sometimes, when performing an "older" original song, I think back to the time when I wrote the song and I can see a drastic difference in who I was before versus who I am today.

"Blank Page" is an older song (from the "Crash" EP) that talks about Truth. And while I have firm convictions about the Truth, I still have my moments of doubt, confusion, and questioning. This song talks about that.

I can look back on my 30 years on this earth and see the seasons of emptiness or trial or challenge and it actually gives me confidence. Because once you've made it to the other side of a rough patch your perspective changes.  It isn't easy, but now when I face life's tough circumstances, I can have hope and peace because I can see how God has been faithful to me.

I suppose that is the biggest difference I can see in my life. That life is just better when I take my focus off of myself and my problems and my desires, and walk with arms and heart wide open.

So, I might still have some questions. Some doubts. Confusion. And it is all valid. But, taking the focus off of my problems and looking to God for comfort and steadfastness has made an incredible difference in the way I live my life.

I am more at peace. I have a lasting and deep joy. I am learning what it means to really love. It is a process. And finding enjoyment in the journey is a million times better than chasing moments of passing happiness.

I still haven't got it all figured out. But I am becoming more ok with that.

What kind of story am I? I'm not completely sure. But, I am putting some things together. With the guidance of trusted friends and a loving God who is infinitely patient I am learning what it is I am supposed to do with this blank page sitting in front of me.

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